PF Chang's... zomg got nervous

So Lyla decided to make spaghetti for dinner on Sunday and we invited Christian to come eat with us. But he said that he was a picky eater and said it'd be better if ate out instead. I think he was scurred that he wouldn't like the food and might offend Lyla. Anyway, we decided to meet up at 6:30 pm at PF Chang's. Lyla invited her brother and his girlfriend along as well.

Anyway, I started to get nervous around 4:00 because I had a feeling I'd be the one driving me/Lyla/Bao/Han to Sunnyvale. I tend to get nervous in a full car especially when people are present that don't know about my panic attacks. So I started sweating alot. I'm not sure how much of the sweating was due to anxiety or due to the really hot weather, but I began to panic.

I told Lyla to tell Bao and Han to take a separate car. I felt ashamed and I felt grumpy. I felt like blaming Christian for not taking the free spaghetti that would have been comfortably eaten at Lyla's apartment instead of at a public restaurant. I felt like blaming Lyla for inviting Bao and Han knowing that it might put me in this situation.

But the good thing is, I acknowledged all this emotion right when they hit me. I didn't end up blaming Lyla. I didn't end up blaming Christian. I didn't beat myself up for giving myself a break to take separate cars. Instead, I vowed to make sure this situation happens again but with me driving everyone and decided to just have a good time at dinner. And I think we all had a good time there.

I think I handled this situation quite well.