New Tests

Okay, I think I'm getting stagnant with my agoraphobia progress.

So, new goal: once every 2 weeks, I'm going to do something that is likely to bring my panic to a level 7 or higher. E.g. take a bus somewhere, go to a new place where I'm not driving... maybe even ride a rollercoaster if I'm feeling tough enough.

Tonight, I'm attending a lawyer's meeting for CAAA (California Applicant Attorney Association). It will be in Watsonville at a restaurant I've never been and my dad is driving. Now I know it would seem like having my dad drive would be a comfort, but it isn't; I'd much rather be the one driving. The reason is because I have always had this thing where I don't want to show any weakness in front of my dad. I feel like I'm letting him down. Therefore, I end up putting pressure on myself not to panic.

So that's challenge #1 for the new goal. I'll let you know how it goes.